Sleeping in your clothes just doesn’t feel like the same anymore, but yet here I lay wrap up in someone’s clothes who doesn’t even want me.
I know this is so wrong but if he would just tell me he is sorry and get the help he needs I would stand by him every step of the way and support him like I have for the past 2 years. His main reason for ending it was my family and while I get when you get married you marry the family but my family isn’t who he would be living with 24/7, sure there would be awkward moments at family events for the first few times but other than that he wouldn’t have to deal with it. If he just said he was sorry and gave me a sunflower and said he loved me and wanted me back I would take him back and go back to being the supportive girlfriend that he loved.
I know I am so wrong…but I don’t care. I am so indecisive on this whole situation but all I know is I keep wanting to tell him I love him and that I forgive him and we can work through this!
One of the things I hate about break ups is as emotionally guarded your being at the same time your so emotionally exposed. Anything and everything can at any moment’s notice make you break down.
As much as I want to be the strong one, I miss him so much that it hurts. I know life eventually will be better….it has to, but right now its not because my best friend is gone and the one person you want when your going through heartache is your best friend